I spoke to my boyfriend last night about things that have been bothering me, or just confusing me in regards to our relationship.
He was in agreeance with me on the issues, but he also said he just feels like a terrible person, and that I shouldn’t have to tell him how not to be. Which is true, but I don’t think he’s a “terrible person”. Sure, there are things he can absolutely work on at bettering himself, but who doesn’t?
So he went to bed in a sour mood, even though I was relieved to finally get these things off my chest, finally.
When we briefly saw each other this morning he seemed to be in an even worse mood. Almost as if he was angry with me, but he still kissed me goodbye.So I suppose I’ll just have to wait and see tonight what his attitude is.
But I will say this, I am exhausted from having to worry and correct and guide. I enjoy helping people, especially the ones I love, but even I’m running out of patience at this point.
I think I made it clear that if he doesn’t genuinely want to work on these things, and doesn’t actively do-so in the next few weeks, I will seriously begin looking for an apartment of my own. I’m out of a job and only have a little money from student loans coming in, but I’m determined to not let anyone or anything stand in my way any longer. Nor do I want to stand in the way of anyone else’s.
Thorolf Holmboe, Brønnøysund
It’s been one of those days where I feel especially sarcastic and witty and have somehow found the confidence to express this at every possible turn. The best part is when I crack myself up and it appears that I’m the only one laughing, but that doesn’t even matter.